Reaching ~ Searching ~ Seeking
THE TRUTH
I find myself alive in the moment, raw, unsettled and sometimes disturbed...when I lose sight of seeking, finding and living my truth!My truth has gotten muddled and murky at recent...distance and I find I am unsettled and unfulfilled inside ~What is raw and coarse upon my spirit is where and what have choosen...I blame myself with letting others define me ... even control me ~ and it when I do this that I lose my internal wisdom...pathway!Resulting in shattered thoughts...of internal integrity...My life choices and personal perception must return to my alignment of my gypsy heart ~ This has always lived within me ~ Consumed me~with wild abandonment and freedom with the deepest urge to not be controlled or have my wings clipped...Each person has thier own personal needs to realize in each of their many lives...shall we call it ...Following your spirit's life wisdom? It is this wisdom that...if not identified and followed ~ will pull and burden one's soul and leave one unfullfilled and unhappy when their life comes to an end... My wisdom is peaking when it is rebelious..against the normal societal control of mundanity ...I fell trapped ~ locked and I can't breathe... Oh, I can do it for a while ~ even for a few years but then my spirit aches with lack of oxygen, movement...lack of LIFE!!!...The gypsy wells up inside and I must break away!!!!I seek out the path less troden the path most will opt against!!!It is here where I feel most alive ~ It is here that I can create newness of vision and perception...hoping to be visible to opening of other's thought processes...of new and creative ways of seeing and being in the world...the possibilities are endless...when we take down the walls of constraint!Gypsy bells ring within my heart...at all hours ofr the night ~making for my integration into the "normal" society" difficult...yet undeniable...With a gyspsy heart, comes a harsh and fervent current that I must swim up against...it takes great strength...and fortitude to face ... the current of other people's thoughts, judgements and analysis if me and my life choices ~ yet...it is my calling...I cannot deny my spirits wisdom seeking urge!!!it gives me strength and it opens doors for myself and I perceive...for others around me ~I continue reaching and seeking my truth ~My truth has taken me...away from what I am doing now...I am done with my "now"...I slowly shut the doors to my "now"...and as I close the doors...I can breath ~ and move ~ and spread my wings after so many years of experiencing them clipped and non-functional...Seeking, reaching and finding my truth with intense commitment ~
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