Gypsy eyes wander the cityscape...music and dancing in her heart~

moving just above the cement...not quite touching it...with her senses~ She glides with a distant ease and centered way yet ~

Wild like a wolf running through the rain~Strong, beautiful, sternly aggressive and most importantly wild at heart!!!!

Gypsy girl~wild wolf girl~navigates through her life with fierce intention of passionate dream fulfilling!

Never getting captured ~ cornered or constraigned ~

Wildly Free! Full of passion, love and abandonment!!!!

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Sunshine warms my forehead with the essence of truth...

I tried...and tried....and found myself lost in self - denial...

Is it me? Am I just not seeing it correctly?

Then, with much time and through many trials of anguish...of giving up and then starting again...I know now. I really really know... The Truth!

How sadly liberating and painfully freeing...the truth hurts deeply...but at last it has a resolve.

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Weeping Willow tree comforts my fall as I watch it's long beautiful limbs breezing so gracefully in the wind...

Tears slide rapidly down my cheek gathering within my heart...and I am full of the weight of this water...Thick and cumbersome...Bold and intrusive within my being...

Seeking to find my gypsy heart

Reaching ~ Searching ~ Seeking

THE TRUTH

I find myself alive in the moment, raw, unsettled and sometimes disturbed...when I lose sight of seeking, finding and living my truth!My truth has gotten muddled and murky at recent...distance and I find I am unsettled and unfulfilled inside ~What is raw and coarse upon my spirit is where and what have choosen...I blame myself with letting others define me ... even control me ~ and it when I do this that I lose my internal wisdom...pathway!Resulting in shattered thoughts...of internal integrity...My life choices and personal perception must return to my alignment of my gypsy heart ~ This has always lived within me ~ Consumed me~with wild abandonment and freedom with the deepest urge to not be controlled or have my wings clipped...Each person has thier own personal needs to realize in each of their many lives...shall we call it ...Following your spirit's life wisdom? It is this wisdom that...if not identified and followed ~ will pull and burden one's soul and leave one unfullfilled and unhappy when their life comes to an end... My wisdom is peaking when it is rebelious..against the normal societal control of mundanity ...I fell trapped ~ locked and I can't breathe... Oh, I can do it for a while ~ even for a few years but then my spirit aches with lack of oxygen, movement...lack of LIFE!!!...The gypsy wells up inside and I must break away!!!!I seek out the path less troden the path most will opt against!!!It is here where I feel most alive ~ It is here that I can create newness of vision and perception...hoping to be visible to opening of other's thought processes...of new and creative ways of seeing and being in the world...the possibilities are endless...when we take down the walls of constraint!Gypsy bells ring within my heart...at all hours ofr the night ~making for my integration into the "normal" society" difficult...yet undeniable...With a gyspsy heart, comes a harsh and fervent current that I must swim up against...it takes great strength...and fortitude to face ... the current of other people's thoughts, judgements and analysis if me and my life choices ~ yet...it is my calling...I cannot deny my spirits wisdom seeking urge!!!it gives me strength and it opens doors for myself and I perceive...for others around me ~I continue reaching and seeking my truth ~My truth has taken me...away from what I am doing now...I am done with my "now"...I slowly shut the doors to my "now"...and as I close the doors...I can breath ~ and move ~ and spread my wings after so many years of experiencing them clipped and non-functional...Seeking, reaching and finding my truth with intense commitment ~

Compassion Heals

Compassion Heals ~

Whispering gently into my heart ~He touched my soul with his breath ~

Warm and comforting it flowed right through me and into my psyche ~

and found my once strong and passionate vision weary and beaten down ~

in desperate need of rest ~

I lay my shoulders, neck and chest upon his bare chest and shoulders,

with my head closely connected to his face ~

skin to skin, soul to soul ~

Closing my eyes and imagining I was being freed from the weight that had barred my vision from breath, life and growth ~

Vision has wings and can fly paramount as it realizes and actualizes it's dreams!

My wings were gone, torn off in a long and exhausting battle ~

So, I continue to stay upon his shoulders hoping to glean some of his strength ...

and when I fell asleep that night I was indeed lifted...into the sky ~

Carried away...far far away from my burdens ~

This is where I found my wings!

My lovely white silky wings...flowing and shimmering in the breeze ~

The Magic of the Full Moon in Twilight
Within the night's full moon ...I am taken on a journey ~ flying through the "outer"..."other" realm where my ancestors dwell ~ They have passed.. but are HERE~ within the beauty of the full moon's glowing light ~
It is almost morning, that beautiful twilight moment of magic ~where it's impossible to distinguish whether it's morning or evening..
Is the sun setting or rising?
I love this moment and find myself immersed within the not knowing ~
The inbetween of all ....it is where I can find my famly ~
My family who has passed into the next plane of reality..
because they live on ~their spirits live on and watch over me and my children...
Ah.... I LOVE the magic powers of the twilight moon!!!!!Starr

Quiet Love ~ Peaceful Love

Quiet love ~ Peaceful Love

...imprints shadows that move within me as the wind moves, shifts and changes ~

I feel it echo through blue and gold vibrations ~

Sometimes in rainbow gusts of beautiful shimmering connection~

Striving to keep this beauty ~ I compromise my individuality...my sense of what is real...

my internal knowledge that the TRUTH is not really there...

I look the other way...knowing the truth has not been told ~

Until, I can look away no longer ...

as the knowing of deception on me diminishes my integrity to myself ~

That beautiful rainbow swirling gust is so alluring!!!

Is it something that I created?Does it exist between the two of us..or...just me?

I will sail away in thought, deep and honest thought within myself...

that is where I will find my truth and my path ~Starr

Floating...

Weightless...

Numb...

I glide silently into the abyss of sadness...

My heart broken...

My dreams shattered...

Sinking Soul shadow overtakes my breath

Aimless...

Tired...

Letting the current take me...away....

A Kiss Has Changed Me!

a Kiss

has changed me

A truely heartfelt kiss is intrinsic to touching someone's soul...

Soul is a feeling ~ it is non-tangible ~

It is not easy to experience as it is buried within the flesh of the body and consumed within the reality of this human existance on this reality plane...

The soul traverses between many simultaneous realities...yet when we occupy this body, this life, this reality...

Soul is very hard to touch ~ to feel ~ to experience ~

A Kiss is an small but definite opening to touch another's soul...

It's just a peek...a brief encounter with the depths of Soul of another...

fostering an overwhelming internally warming!

To be in that moment of that kiss is to touch another's Soul!

My body warms with the intimacy...the beauty...the magic of the connection!!!

Within a kiss~The memory lingures...within my being ~ my Soul...and we are united...in the moment, in the memory and in the timelessness of our eternal spirits!

Starr 7/8/08